It seems like forever since I’ve posted, it probably has been.

I do not think of myself as a stupid person. I am an accountant by trade; I work with numbers and dollars every day. I’m required to add, subtract, multiply, divide everyday to come up with reports, totals and verify information. Yet, for all of this math, I see day in and day out; I still can’t follow a simple knitting pattern.

Now, I don’t consider myself a stupid knitter either. I can follow a pattern, I can read charts, and I’m not scared of lace or cables or color-work. I admit that the thought of knitting my husband a sweater vest, is a little daunting, but if you saw him, I dare you to think otherwise. Why is it then that a simple baby sweater is becoming the bane of my little knitting world?

The “Baby surprise jacket” seemed like such a great idea at the time. It was cute, It didn’t’ seem overwhelming. I knew it would take me a little longer to do, because of the cramping in my hands due to pregnancy related carpal tunnel, but it would be worth it in the long run. I cast on, I started to knit, I was happy, and I was going to do this. Then the pattern bit me in the ass.

I been told that this pattern is a leap of blind faith, to trust the pattern and not worry. Maybe that’s the problem, I’m an analyzer, I keep stopping to check my work, count and recount stitches. I am going insane. I’ve actually written an excel sheet on how many stitches I should have on each row. Why? Because, I’ve finally gone insane. Something has got to give with me, because I do not want to give up on this sweater, but I really need things to click in place so I can just get it done.